2018: The Year That Was

It feels like forever since I wrote something. I guess i just let my procrastination rule over me. But I have been missing this.

I was supposed to write a lot about college and life but ironically didnt write a single blog after joining college. 

I hope you guys missed me. xD

So, since this will be the last post of the year, I am gonna talk about the same. 

2018 is this close to getting over and I can proudly say it was the most happening year of my life. 

From school's farewell to board exams, from the uncertainty of admission to finally getting into a college, from not knowing how am I gonna make friends to finding people as crazy as me, the year was anything but boring. 

And the one lesson that I learned was that life definitely has a way of figuring everything out. 

You can fret and worry about everything and yet when everything falls into place, all you will do is sit back and see how it happens. 

All you need is a little faith that all that happens is for the best and you are good to go. 

And if anything, this is the most comforting thought of it all. Even if you think your progress isn't at par with  the rest of the world, even when you feel like you don't know what tomorrow will bring, just hold on. It always always always gets better. 

There's so much love and kindness in this world, but you won't get it if you outright seek it. The more you give it to others, the more it will affect your life. 

The world is your canvas. Dont let others paint it for you. 

Ps- I am looking for some inspiration for new year resolutions. Please tell me in comments or DM me if you have any interesting ideas for the same. xD

Life: choice is yours!

Honestly, nothing gives your self esteem a bigger blow than seeing somebody else's successful life on social media. People become stars overnight.. maybe within a wink of the eye( you get the reference, obviously xD)

What is the reason for lack of attachments in our generation from the people around them ? Why do we keep jumping from one distraction to another ? Why trends last only as long as a night ? But still not knowing about the newest trending meme makes you sound like you have been living under a rock ?

Every new book about that flawless beauty or that unbeatable billionaire or that genius from one of those prestigious colleges sells.

But ask yourself this: Are only pretty people or rich people or people with an insanely cool resumé the ones who ever live an interesting life? 

Hell no!!

And if and when somebody raises the question about the need of being human instead of perfect, it is always accompanied by 'social acceptance' . Sample this: 'People with low self esteem need social acceptance.' Hell, kiski acceptance ? Arrey kaun hai yeh 'social acceptance' dene wale ?

So basically, being a normal flawed human being is not IN VOGUE anymore.

It is necessary to keep moving ahead, to achieving newer and better things in life.. but is it sane that our vision of success and happiness is clearly determined by the standards set up by lives of people on the internet ? By people you have never met and have no idea of how they are in real life ?

Your life will remain mediocre as long as you continue to believe that you deserve it.

Stop Existing and Start Living

You keep saying you love stability, you like everything in order, calm is your way of life. But the question is who are you fooling ? The world? 

Or yourself?

Just because you were led into believing you were made into a disaster  because of your thirst for storms, you decided to shut yourself up. And now you walk away instead of fighting. 

What you don't realise is that your thirst for storms is not as superficial as you think it is. You crave for chaos from the very core. Because easy is boring. You are made for disorder. Don't make your temporary love for stability a way of life.

So let yourself dream again. Let yourself unleash the storms you are meant to experience.

Value your peace of mind. But start questioning the definition of CALM. Because it doesn't always mean inactivity and no participation. For some it means being in the middle of experiencing the biggest secrets that this universe hides.

But this won't be easy. Not after your mind has got comfortable in your fake realm of tranquility. But it will be worth it. So step out. The God (or whatever invisible force is out there) is waiting for you to take your shot at life.

Because souls like yours are meant to write unforgettable stories. 

Is It Too Much To Ask ?

All through life we learn so many things. But one thing that most of us are still bad at is accepting ourselves as individuals.

Somehow, we are never taught the right way to channelise the ideas in our minds.

We are always taught to walk the path everyone else took.( even though we romanticise Frost's Road Less Travelled!) Because there is safety in crowds. And so slowly and steadily, the world turns us into sheeps. And that is not where it stops. Because we also learn to hate those who choose to differ from crowd.

In theory, it sounds stupid. Come on, how can somebody force you to do something you don't want to? Aren't we living in a world of 'free will' ?

But can you count all the times in your life when you shied away from taking a decision only because you were afraid of what everybody else might say.

It is very difficult to admit. But your actions are still largely determined by the society you live in.

This is absolutely something we all have heard previously. But i chose to write on it again because i saw kids my age changing themselves to fit in. Doing things they don't like, being with other kids they don't match thoughts with. 

And it's heartbreaking. Because this is taking away their individuality . All that really matters anymore is to stay COOL.

And nobody even knows what that means.

So choose to refuse to be defeated by people's idea of acceptable.

Live life on your own terms. That way, at least you would never have anybody else to blame.

Kya pataa fir yeh mauka ho na ho ?

Kitne time se kuchh ni likha na.... aisa lg rha hai jaise kitne dino se sanyaas liya hua tha maine ( to the ones who just laughed at it and said dt I say dis every single day, i wud say Shut up :D )

I have been hating this whole stage of writer's block! I have written more "incomplete blogs" in the past few weeks than probably the whole of my blogging life. But that is because now I have more and more expectations to live up to.  And that kinda makes things difficult.

But on the contrary, nobody expecting anything from you is worse! Imagine living a life where nobody tells you to do anything. It might sound tempting but since I have had some occasional experiences of the same, I would warn you away.

Coming back to the topic, this one is about approaching the end of school! Sounds like so easy right ?Finally you get to get away from this cage that your school is? No it really is not just about your school. ( All you juniors,  wait for the time when you will reach class 12! Its all about first-hand experience ;P )

Laughing about the memories of all the time I hated going to school (honestly! that was never.. I have never hated going to school. Yeah yeah.. I was a nice kid. xD ), its crazy how things come to an end without you even realising. And you have been through enough ends of friendships and relationships to have learned your lesson but you are always one step away from having learned how it feels.

And that is just why in these last few months that we have,  we should probably hope to clear our grudges with people, establish the friendships you have long wanted and clear the air with those you hate. Forgive like that is all you know, love like it is all you want and in the end, it will just be a little less painful to say your goodbyes!

Dont' let all these idiots you've known for 14 long years get away without a happy memory of you! Ditch the ones who make you doubt the love you deserve.

For once, let your logical mind stay in peace and let your heart do the talking.

Kya pataa fir yeh mauka ho na ho ? ♥

Letter to self

Dear Me,
I am sorry I haven't been looking after you enough lately. I am sorry I let you stay lost while trying to find others. I am sorry I don't love you as much as you deserve. I am sorry I let people hurt you so much, so bad. Most importantly, I am sorry I couldn't accept you the way you are.
Well, I have been trying to describe you. And I found out that all I know about you is the bad parts. All I want from people is to abandon you for all the bad I see. All I want from friends is to find out who you really are and leave you alone.
 But I haven't been successful as you must know. And thank God I didn't end up doing it.
And now I am back for you. I know what you need.  Or maybe I don't.  But then maybe that is the entire point of this life.
At least I know what I am not doing to you anymore. I am no more introducing you  with your flaws. I am no more looking for somebody to accept you for all the bad things. Or for that matter, I am not looking forward to you being accepted anymore. The only acceptance you need is from me and from this moment onwards, I promise you that I will try as hard as I can to not let you down. Again.
And now I will introduce you as the one who smiles... As the one who stares at flowing water like her life depends on it.. As the one people think of as naïve but you don't care.. As the one who is not afraid to fight for self.. And probably as the one who learned to love you. 🍁🍁

Let life happen to you. 💙

The only people worth being jealous of in life are the ones who have found their passions.
And here you are. Stuck. Trying out different things, hoping something would turn out to be the purpose of your life. But all you get is a new thing to add to the list of things 'You-tried-but-didnt-like-enough-to-call-passion'.
I guess the main reason you feel out of place is because you didnt find passion in most fields that passions are 'supposed' to be in. Be it theatre, speaking, business.. 
*The list must have been long but i can barely think of examples. Just how limited is our view of passion.*

I thought i was passionate about writing. But I am more self-depreciative towards what I write than I can put into words.. And I can also get through months without writing anything. Passion is not a game of lost-and-found. Is it ?
And i feel its worse than being stuck on the same thing; not knowing what exactly do you want outta your life. And hence the love of our generation for 'I-dont-know'.
Another reason why our generation is fighting too hard to find its passion is because 'The path to success is not hard work as much as passion.'
So basically, no passion is equal to no success. 
While its true in every sense. But not finding your passion doesn't make you a failure. Just because a few people around you found their passion doesn't mean that at 17, if you don't know what you love, you would never know.
Believe that this world is bigger than you know and yet smaller than you can possible imagine. 
So here I am telling you something, which might sound clichéd but its so important to remember that you often forget: 'Its alright to be lost. Best destinations are found when you have travelled too many roads leading to nowhere.'

Let life happen to you darling, let life happen. ❤️