Letter to self

Dear Me,
I am sorry I haven't been looking after you enough lately. I am sorry I let you stay lost while trying to find others. I am sorry I don't love you as much as you deserve. I am sorry I let people hurt you so much, so bad. Most importantly, I am sorry I couldn't accept you the way you are.
Well, I have been trying to describe you. And I found out that all I know about you is the bad parts. All I want from people is to abandon you for all the bad I see. All I want from friends is to find out who you really are and leave you alone.
 But I haven't been successful as you must know. And thank God I didn't end up doing it.
And now I am back for you. I know what you need.  Or maybe I don't.  But then maybe that is the entire point of this life.
At least I know what I am not doing to you anymore. I am no more introducing you  with your flaws. I am no more looking for somebody to accept you for all the bad things. Or for that matter, I am not looking forward to you being accepted anymore. The only acceptance you need is from me and from this moment onwards, I promise you that I will try as hard as I can to not let you down. Again.
And now I will introduce you as the one who smiles... As the one who stares at flowing water like her life depends on it.. As the one people think of as naïve but you don't care.. As the one who is not afraid to fight for self.. And probably as the one who learned to love you. 🍁🍁

Let life happen to you. 💙

The only people worth being jealous of in life are the ones who have found their passions.
And here you are. Stuck. Trying out different things, hoping something would turn out to be the purpose of your life. But all you get is a new thing to add to the list of things 'You-tried-but-didnt-like-enough-to-call-passion'.
I guess the main reason you feel out of place is because you didnt find passion in most fields that passions are 'supposed' to be in. Be it theatre, speaking, business.. 
*The list must have been long but i can barely think of examples. Just how limited is our view of passion.*

I thought i was passionate about writing. But I am more self-depreciative towards what I write than I can put into words.. And I can also get through months without writing anything. Passion is not a game of lost-and-found. Is it ?
And i feel its worse than being stuck on the same thing; not knowing what exactly do you want outta your life. And hence the love of our generation for 'I-dont-know'.
Another reason why our generation is fighting too hard to find its passion is because 'The path to success is not hard work as much as passion.'
So basically, no passion is equal to no success. 
While its true in every sense. But not finding your passion doesn't make you a failure. Just because a few people around you found their passion doesn't mean that at 17, if you don't know what you love, you would never know.
Believe that this world is bigger than you know and yet smaller than you can possible imagine. 
So here I am telling you something, which might sound clichéd but its so important to remember that you often forget: 'Its alright to be lost. Best destinations are found when you have travelled too many roads leading to nowhere.'

Let life happen to you darling, let life happen. ❤️

Goodbye, 2016. Hullo, 2017.

The year went by in a jiffy.. Didn't it ? 

We made decisions, found new people, lost some old ones and now are looking forward for 2017.

So do u regret how the year went ? Or you are pretty much happy with how things enfolded ? 

While your answers might wary, there is one thing I am so sure we all did.. Consciously or unconsciously.  And that is Self pity. 

Sounds clichéd.. Like another one of those rants about self love ? Well no. This time lets keep it moderate. 

Well you cant always stay strong. Fuck. Because there is that stupid heart of yours who doesn't listen when you tell it not to get attached. So well something happens and you screw up. Big time. We all do. At some point or the other. No big deal. 

But it does become a big deal because you, my dear, choose the easier way out. Instead of taking a responsibility of whatever happened; you start seeking reasons and explanations so as to why you are not to blame. And while that is gratifying in short term.. In the long term it makes you addicted. Addicted to sympathy. And that is much like ruining your life with your own beautiful hands. 

I write about happiness but not now because this time its different. This time its the end of the year. The one time when you have to learn from whatever good and bad happened and let go of the grudges. So its important to learn the right things from 2016.

Would you take a resolution with me.. To not dwell in self- pity anymore and stand upto every good and bad decision you ever make ?

This one resolution that you promise, not to break. 

Because its your story.. and however much glorious or inglorious the event is, own up to it.. and stop looking for public approvals. You don't need people to tell you what you did was fine or not. You have to stop caring about how people perceive you before an event and after an event. 

Cause this is your life an you have to make it big.

Wish you a very very Happy New Year. ♥

Sadguru :')

He was magic ✨Every good thing that exists in this world is your ehsaas. Every good thought, your simran. Now that I see you all around me, why do my eyes still long to see you? Why do I have to remind my eyes that you're everywhere - in me, in him, in them - closer than ever, in this very breath, in this very thought that thinks of you and salutes you endless times. For you were 'love personified', from you love blossomed, and from love you. You were a miracle hazoor, and forgive this soul for thinking that you're gone, because you can never leave. You hid your real self from us all this while. You were, you are and you always will be. In every smile, in every tear, in every prayer, in every fear, in every breath I will find you near. Forever indebted ❤️

No One understands ME :/

I knw..... padhte hi lag rha hoga ki kitna strange title hai.. bt kya karein, aaj ke discussion ka mudda yahi hai..

Achha toh lemme know one thing. Have you used this sentence in your life lately  ??

Agar haan....toh keep on reading. Aaj ka blog sirf tumhare liye hai. Aur agar nahin toh fir bhi padhte raho. Maana ki tumhe ni chahiye but kya pataa tumhare kisi dost ke kaam aa jaye ( xD)

Now since, all of you are reading ahead anyway, then I think we should first know why do we feel this ki koi humein samajhta hi nhi hai. Here are a few conditions when we want to say this:

1. You don't want to study but mom-dad are pestering you because your exams are near.
2. You are heartbroken (yes! the kind of heartbroken I have been telling you to not to care about. New to my blog ?? Read my previous ones. You will know what I mean..)
3. You are going through that ideological turmoil about whether to think like a kid or a grown up.
4. Mann kr rha hai hard core romantic gaane sunne ka.. jb koi life mein hai hi ni.. tb bi.. ( personal favorite.. you see xD )

Ab tum kisi category mein fall kro ya na kro... aage toh pdhlo yr !! :P

Achha bahut bdiya... All my sympathies are with you (!) Ab agar tumhara- mera melodrama khatam ho gya ho toh kaam ki baat krein ??

I agree... hum abi ek aisi age mein hain jahan apne gharwale hi sbse bde dushamn aur dost hi "ek-maatr" ( for my oh-so- padhe likhe friends, it means "one and only" )sahaara lgte hain. Aur yahin hm galti kr jaate hain.

Sabse pehle, important yeh hai samajhna ki you are not the first person to go through this ( and worst, you have sympathized with yourself so many times on this one point. Oh scrap it off.. please !!)
I mean come one yaar, itna toh tum bi smjhte ho na ki nothing going right now is a big deal. To make you feel better, everyone goes through this turmoil.

Bus ab jab bi lge na ki koi nahi smjhta humein... jaake sheeshe ke saamen khade hoke saari bhadaas nikal dena. Chalo aur koi smjhe ya na smjhe... khud ko toh smjhoge na??!!

And Babaji ke liye yaar, stop thinking that you have to put up an armour on all your feelings, never let anyone know what you are feeling because they will use it against you. Nahin na.... you do need to open a little. Acknowledge your feelings. Else one day you'll explode like a volcano and then the damage would be irreparable.

For the rest. Keep smiling. To me, there is nothing more beautiful than that 100-watt smile one your face my dear reader. ^.^

Happiness- Kahan ho tum ??

Hello guys !! back again. hahahah not really. I had been procastinating it for a whole month. But here I am. Writing to you. Trying to talk to you. Maybe you think this is a one sided communication. But no !! It is 2-sided. Uk how ??
 Whenever I sit and write a blog, I imagine saying it to someone I talk to. Now that could be you, right now reading this. Anyways, don't we all know how much hurtful can a one-sided communication be. How can I hurt you, right ?? :)

Vaise toh mai iss baar new year resolutions pe likhne wlai thi. But aaj, after a discussion I had with my WISE friends ( :P ), I have decided today we will talk about HAPPINESS.
Yeah fine, I know meko yeh topic bahut pasand hai and I finally end up on this topic in every blog more or less. But that is missing in our life anyway. Aur ek baat ko baar baar bolo, tabhi jaake smjh aati hai. ( Indians hain na. paidayishi dheeth :D )

Toh aaj firse ek sawaal. Happiness ka address kya hai ?? (sbse pehle meko hi bta do. bde dino se dhoondh rhi hu :) )

Ik ab tum soch rhe hoge.... yeh kaisa sawaal hai. And thats ohkay!! Coz agar koi meko bhi yeh poochhta toh mai bhi aise hi react krti, But koi toh jagah hogi na jahan log "happiness" ko SELL krte honge. Usse zyada koi availability meko toh ni lgta aaj kal hai. Kahin market mein stock ki kami toh ni hai ;)

Isse meko woh quote yaad aya. " Don't search for happiness at the same place you lost it." Pr bhai log, dhoondhne ki baat toh hm tbhi kr skte hain jab hmein pta ho ki woh hai kya.

But  I guess... hum toh woh bhi bhool chuke hain. Haan mana har bande ke liye happiness ki definition alag hoyegi. But instead of being different....we have strained into certain parameters. Haan you have dis... You can be happy. You dont have it... You are supposed to be sad.

But why don't we create our own happiness. (That is why I am writing this right now. Coz it makes me happy :) ) Achha btao happiness kahan se create hogi. jab people start judging what you feel. And such strong are the impacts that you suddenly start judging your own feelings. Ab iske baad bhi kahin happiness ka scope bach jata hai kya ?? Meko toh ni lgta.

Ik iske baad mai bol skti hu ki sbki baat sunna bnd krdo. Sabko inni importance dena chhod do. But since I have tried it already... I know that it won't make too much of a difference. So I wont suggest that to you.

Toh ab karein toh karein kya ??

Chalo suno. Yeh toh hm sbi ko pta hai ki kids are much much happier than us. So why not be the kid that you hide in yourself. Exactly. Stick your tongue out to small children. Pass smiles to people on street you don't even know. Sit in your room and eat a whole chocolate all by yourself ( I am still to do dis in my life though :P ).  Sing those nursery rhymes with your siblings.  Copy people on TV. Make faces behind people's back( or maybe on their faces. Jut don't blame me if you ever get punched. I have tried it and by God's grace, I have never been punched at least :P )

To end with it.... han han pta hai meko bahut bolti hu mai.... Yaar ek realization lif emein jitni jaldi ho jaye na. utne khush rhoge. Duniya toh tumhari khushiyon se jalti hai. toh tum kaise expect kr skte ho ki koi tumhari khushi ka reason bne. Don't give the key of your happiness into anyone lese's hand but your very own..!!

Read Ahead and Discover :)

If you ask me what prompted me to write this piece; then i would say that I don't know. As I type this I don't even know so as to what am I gonna write about but I just hope I will get something concrete anyway.

So, before I start trying to help you out, I would just like to ask "How are you feeling right now??"
Your answers would range from something like freaking awesome( tabad tod in my language) to sort of sad.
Now take just 2 minutes out of your oh-so-busy schedule and think about today. What all happened ??
Something like you didn't submit the HA to your teacher; you had a fight with one of your friends; someone you really wanted to talk to didn't try talking to you today either; or maybe you laughed like idiots with your friends today. Anything. And everything.

But lemme ask you something. How often do you let such petty issues disturb your sleep ??

I think it would be sort of tiresome to list your problems. Obviously you know it much better than me. According to me, its not the problem we are sick of. Its the solution for that problem which we are looking for constantly. And now what's better is that I am gonna give that solution to you; beautifully decorated in the platter. Your only work is to EAT it. :D

The whole day you work so freaking hard. I know. ( Hey!! Did you take that seriously?? I think even you know how HARD your life is anyway. Don't you ?? Go read my previous blogs then.)

But I don't feel that it would be too difficult for you to spare just 5 minutes before you sleep, to make your life better.

Now, getting to a bit of work. I hope you know that your mind is nothing but a big, BLANK screen. So, choose your best picture and fix it right there on your mind's screen  for those 5 minutes.( You might indulge in self-appreciation. I don't mind. I do that all the time. :D )

Next,you just need to slice a part of your head in that picture of yours. Try it yourself. Trust me, its fun. So, if you notice it now, you have an open mind.( And don't forget. Its freaking EMPTY :P)
I hope you already know what is it that is troubling you. Take its worst possible picture. And imagine yourself first putting it into your head and then taking it out with all your might. Do this with everything that causes a problem to you. Be it people, things, books. Anything. Everything.

Did you notice?? You just emptied your mind.( It was already empty vaise. But you just need toh ave that experience of emptying it yourself.) So, now there is more than enough space for things you love. Why not put them back to where they should belong. :)

After you are done with this in-and-out stuff, please don't forget to reseal your minds.( Else it would all sort of flow out again.)

Try this for just 5 days and you will feel better. I say this with personal experience.

PS-Here is a brownie point cause I love you reader!! Everytime you find yourself thinking about that which you pushed out of your mind... just tell yourself once that you have already sent it out and it no longer a part of life. The more you tell this to yourself. the more you will find it taking a backseat in your life in reality.

PPS- Be happy. You won't get another life anyway.